I can’t believe that I’ve been lagging on my website for an entire month!

There is so much that I haven’t written about. School has been going a lot smoother than I thought. For some reason, I thought I was about to crash and burn in my BUS170 class. When my class took the first midterm, my greatest fear was failing. I can live with earning a C-, maybe even a D, but I would never accept an F. If all of you remember, an F is embarrassing because you jumped from D to F, meaning you did so bad, you skipped an entire letter. By the end of the test, I realized that I was sweating over nothing.

Although I did well on the midterm, I still need to get back on track. I’ve been on a dating spree, which is making this semester much more different then my other semesters. This semester marks my first time going on dates (no wonder I’ve been single for over 20 years). I need to cut back on going out. In the midst of all this, I started to think about age.

What exactly is age? I’ve noticed a pattern in all of the female dating profiles I’ve read. “I want an older man.” What does that mean, exactly? If it’s an issue of maturity, then I would have to say that age is a good way to assess maturity, but not gauranteed. I know a certain person that is well over 30, but still has the level of maturity of a middle school student. Sorry, I’ve overexaggerated. What I meant to say was that this person has thet level of maturity of the average 14 year old. I’d love to get into the details about this person, but I have some respect for her privacy. If you noticed, I just mentioned something about this person’s age and sex.

The people that I’ve been going out with don’t know my real age and I would like to keep it that way (Veil of ignorance). I think age is really just a number.

This issue of age lead me to another issue, confidence. Where does confidence come from? I don’t think there is one right answer. If you stay up and watch paid programming, you would notice a pattern in what gives males confidence. Every night, I see this infomercial about male enhancement. What they’ve been saying is that penis size translates into confidence. There is something similar for women as well, enhancement bras/implants.

Is that all there is to gaining confidence? That’s not where my confidnece comes from.

My confidence comes from what I already have. I have a great friends and most of my family members support me. I’m lucky to have what I have. Any other things that I come across would make everything better than it already is.